The Three C's

She walked through the thousands of people crossing paths with her. Aware of her surroundings, she tried to feel the energies stimulating her. The energies interacted with each other, sending out mixed signals. What was her energy like? No one had ever told her. She wanted to know so badly. Could anyone tell her?

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You ever get the feeling of emptiness inside? Where everything is still taking place, in routine and order amidst the chaos and there you are, standing. Standing still. You are fixed, more like glued to your feet. You want to take a step. A step toward any direction. Right or left, it doesn't matter. Forward or backward, also doesn't matter. As long as you're able to move. That feeling of being paralyzed in a whirlpool of emotions and unwanted communication. Stuck in the dirt of peoples secrets. Mounted above their hidden smiles. You want to be able to live, but you just don't know how. 

Instead, you are standing still while the constant flow of people walk in and out of bustling crowded trains. Instead, you sit on the lush green grass, while children play and laugh merrily amongst the beautiful bees and butterflies. Instead, you walk through the swarm of athletes sprinting their life away, without actually realizing that life is indeed a marathon, and not a 100 meter race. 

In reality, you have all these desires to be free. Without a care. Without being bound or tied down to anyone or anything. Somewhat detached, somewhat carefree. Either way, you feel fastened tight to the ground, without life. With this, you find multiple ways to remove yourself from the equation and discover the true meaning of your being. So you tend to try different activities and methods to break out of this lifeless rut. 

Perhaps take a painting class? Start collecting magnets? Ah, I know. Travel around the world. Or maybe switch jobs? Whatever it is, you've tried it. But nothing seems to work. What do you do now? You keep pushing. You keep moving forward. You continuously thrive. Because you know what? One day, you will find it. It could be a hobby, a new adventure, a new partner, a new life and one fine day, the old mask will fall off. You will be able to experience a new life. That particular thing will bring life to you. And into you. And the day it does, don't stop. Continue with what makes you feel content and full of light. Whatever it may be or whoever it may be. It will come. I promise you, the day you find whatever it is that is searching for you and vice versa, that will be the day you will be in flow with the moving bustling crowds in trains. You will want to play among the children in lavish parks and you will find a way to partake in your very own marathon. 

: _miss.sajhwani

Contradictions

I am a myriad of contradictions. I am immeasurable. Some days I want to be smothered in affection, praise and passion. I want to drown in earnestness. Other days however, I want nothing but solitude. I want to bury myself into a tunnel full of secret mazes and get lost there for hours at a stretch. It's called balance. 

Some days I utter words of sweet maple syrup dripping down the rim of my lips. Phrases so sweet that honey is put to shame. Other days however, I transform into a poisonous Queen Cobra. No mercy on any living being, I spit venom right at the target, where it hurts. It's called balance. 

Some days I am inspired to work hard like my life depends on it, you know, like ants or honeybees. Constantly in touch with efficiency and independancy. Other days however, I might as well impersonate a sloth. I wish for nothing more than to move at 2 metres per minute. It's called balance. 

Some days I resist the gravitational forces of love and become astray. I walk my own path which has a name. It is called Detachment Street. On this street, there is only one resident; me. No one is allowed to enter or to cross through this path but me. Other days however, I shift into my other home. This is placed in the center of Temptation Street. Multiple homo sapiens are allowed to tresspass and meet me at the crossroads. It's called balance. 

Some days I yearn to communicate through a series of collisions of our mouths, raw and real. Fondling, tasting and unfolding secrets. Other days however, I long for nothing and no one. I do not require any one to lay a finger on me, let alone embrace me. Stay far away and do not enter my personal space. It's called balance. 

So you see, what I'm really trying to preach is that life is all about contradictions. Life in itself is a beautiful contradiction. Without paradoxes, where what we be? Boring and dull. Contradictions and complexities are what make us enthralling. 


- Miss Sajhwani

Moment of Calm

Forgive, but Forget?

What exactly is “The Moment of Calm?” It’s a global initiative for World Peace.

It’s main purpose is to bring calmness into our hearts through forgiving.

Often, people are sucked into this negative attribute of hatred towards others,

whether this is hatred towards a certain family member, friend or even

strangers for that matter.  The truth is that we, as humans, don’t understand the

impact that negative traits impose upon us. Hatred stems from the root of

jealousy, anger, greed, selfishness and lust. The word in itself is too strong a

word to use on any living being, or even any non-living thing. Have you ever

heard yourself say,  “I really hate that girl. She is so rude.” Or something as

simple as “You know what? I really wish I had the same bag. She really isn’t that

kind." Why use the word hate? Why do we need to degrade ourselves and allow

our emotions to get the better of us?

People often preach and tell each other “Forgive and forget.” We all have learned

this lesson while growing up. Let’s be honest. It is easier to preach than to

practice.  The Dalai Lama says all it takes is a split moment to forgive someone

you hate. We must minimize destructive emotions and actions. Not just

physically, but even mentally and emotionally.  He believes that the negative

emotions stirred into us are through our enemies, and to cater to that, we must

learn to distract ourselves and to forgive them for what they do.  This ultimately

leads to a peaceful mind.

Some people reading this might still be skeptical and ask, “So how exactly do we

practice world peace and forgive someone?” There are four very simple steps.

The first and most important, stop being judgmental.  No one is perfect so only

God should be the judge of that.  Second, develop the spirit of tolerance and

understanding towards a person, whether you like them or dislike them. Learn

to grow past these thoughts and treat them like your equal. Third, try to control

the animalistic impulse to fight, argue and retaliate. Lastly, this has helped me

umpteen times and surely, many can relate. It is important to pray to God. 

Sometimes, our situations may be severe and we alone cannot forgive without

the help of God. 

I believe that forgiveness heals. It is a way to purify our minds and hearts, and as

Mahatma Gandhi once said, “The weak can never forgive. It is the attribute of the
strong.” I know that from today, I will practice forgiving all my enemies and destroy

my ill feelings for those I dislike. I will purify my thoughts and allow myself to

heal spiritually and mentally. Let’s do this together and perhaps we will be able to

inspire others too and join the pilgrim of love.